Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Lighting the Incense

As I write this the sweet smell of incense fills my house as we again enter into whats called the Two Week Wait to see if we are pregnant.

I have been lighting the incense and praying for 4 months now ..(yes I said praying) to who ever will listen.

Every month that passes shatters a little more of my heart. I thought the miscarriage was our bad luck and now the Dr says it is possible getting pregnant in the first place was the fluke. Only time will tell.

Mumiji thinks I should dress nicely, put on makeup and "pretend like its my honeymoon" and all will be ok. I don't know if she is telling me I look like a cow pattie or if she is trying to tell me to have loads of sex with her son.

While all this is going on we have started building another house, it was a bigger house to make room for the baby, but I guess now its a bigger house to make room for our future baby (trying to remain hopeful)

I have embarked on lots of different measures since the miscarriage from healing crystals, chakra healing and this friday I am having acupuncture I even had a pshyic reading. Even if they don't work they will occupy my mind for some time.

I guess that's it.. sorry its a little depressing...

I promise I'll snap out of it soon....